So anyways just because this is another song that works for Evageline/Nyota.

So like oh my god. I'm so angry at this shit. Seriuosly like i can't even remember why i read it. Maybe to make myself just like in pain, like therapy except reversed.

It really sucks, and i'm really sick of it.
Also fuck you amber.

Just like oh my god. Also the only reason i said 'i know.' after every time you said 'i love you' was because i didn't want to say it back, just cause. Like really idnk.
*headeskheadeskheadeskheadesk*

Hey everyone. i'm at school isn't that super fun? Haha no not really sorry.

Well i'm using this awesomeness it's pretty cool.

^^ so yeah today i have anime club it's super awesome. It actually really is.

^^ Whoa i just used that smiley twice in the same place!

Sorry i'm really happy and i have no actual news. Sorreh. So yeah i'm gonna go now. Yup.

Also i make a really goth btw. :)

Ok so this post has nothing to do with Seattle, but i just thought it was a snappy title.

Sorry.

So tomorrow at 8:30 in the morning i have another (3rd/4th) doctor (therapist) appointment.

The last one i was at SHE TOTALLY THOUGHT I WAS HIDING SOMETHING WAAAAY WORSE THEN IT ACTUALLY WAS!

Cause i wouldn't tell her what sites i go on. (out of embaressment.)
and i wouldn't tell what i watch on tv. (see above reason.)
i wouldn't really tell her much of anything actually.
I never fully explained Evageline's character. (i got to 'She's one of my roleplay characters.' and then i got distracted.)

She totally worded the question 'are you gay?' in the weirdest way.
She was like 'Do you a have a boyfriend?' and i was like 'no.' then she was like 'Do you have a special girl that you would like to become that.' and i was like 'eh.' (cause i totally don't want to admit that kind of shit when they might have that fucking place bugged for all i know.)

After that it got really quiet for a couple minutes.

I'm soooo not looking forwards to next semester where i have ZERO PERCENT ELECTIVES! Cause i tried to get whatever the hell it was and even though i talked to mr. m and such about it mr. d was still like 'No fuck you. I hate you.' (Which we all know is true anyways.)

the first like 3/4 on the list get listened to most often. (don't have to scroll down.)
Ones i have to scroll down for, get listened to not that often, but still pretty often.
Ones on the second page maybe every few weeks or whatnot.
third page-couple of months
4th forget it.

Yup you can see i'm very lazy. XD

So yeah. I was reading something today, and realized how terribly terrible Evageline has become.

I really really miss how she used to be. Like i just feel so bad for what she has become, and what i've done to her. It just makes me really sad inside.

So i was talking to danielle my mother. So i was trying to get her to rp with me. (For some strange reason i thought adele was dj's character.) so i was looking at our rp cause i was getting ready to rp.

It said Zack was her character. I posted in the chat 'Sorry i thought Adele was your character.' So, this proves (once again) that i'm incredibly shallow. (see post about magical leaf, and ashcroft below.)

Ok for the more clueless people reading this. (no one.) I'll explain this.

So this is the only straight pairing rp i currently have going on right now. (it'll die soon enough.) Which is only because i was being considerate and thought she didn't want to do a slash. Which as the post below states, that i have mostly no interest in straight pairing shit of any kind. So yeah.

I'm a failure lolzs.

So yesturyesturday i was at the town pool, for like 6/7 hours, or something. It was awesome. So at around like 10/11/12/1/2/3 i spot sarah swimming around the pool talking to her brothers like she actucally likes them. (*shock*) So i swim around in the same area, just because i'm a totally nonobsessive stalker. (lies) We totally met our eyes and just kinda stared for a minute (*squee*) but then she moved and i went off to the diving board. So after like ten minutes or something. So leaves. Do you know who i know, cause i couldn't find her anywhere. I walked around the pool like three times, and i didn't see her anywhere.

So i love how obviously immature she is. Cause ya know that's the reason why she left writers block, cause i was there. It's like i ruin absolutely everything. It's kinda funny once i get over the crippling agoninzing emotional pain. It just makes me laugh or giggle. (more lies.)

So yesturday i was talking to maggie at anime club. She was complaining about how dj (my mother) (for the 10th time.) wasn't there yet. So appreantly her and maggie and some other peeps were going to go see Ponyo. Which is what i wanted to see so i was like 'Hey i wanted to see you could take me.' Do you know what she said. Directly off center of my face (as in she wasn't even looking at me.) she said 'no.' Just like that. Like wtf. Seriously.

So i was watching house hunters and this real esate agent, was called Cookie. I just couldn't take her seriuosly as she had a hooker name. Like seriously.

So...

I could rant here with a lot of things.
I could rant here about Becca.
I could rant here about stupid people.
I could rant here about a lot of silly
unimportant things going on in my life
but i won't mainly because i don't feel
like it. (and yes i did not put any
periods in that for a reason.)

I had something to post here but i forgot it.

How sad.

You Are Gay

In your opinion, there's nothing sexier than your own sex. There's definitely nothing straight about you!

I took that blogthings a long time ago, to see if it was true or not.

I trust blogthings to such a freakish degree it's like god to me.

Which is sad cause like wtf do i really need a internet quiz site to tell me that or not? Lolzs i'm pathetic.

So awhile back i joined this rping forum called the magical leaf.
I was reading all of the everything (cause i do that.) and one character on that site out like 20 or whatever was bisexual.(see rant some number of pages ago.) I quit it.

Then a while after that i joined Ashcroft Academy (which i can't help prounouncing it like asscroft) practically every character on that site is super gay whore. I adore this site to bits and pieces. Like somewhat freakishly adore this forum.

I guess it makes me kinda shallow that i wouldn't stay on a site because most of the character were straight. But i highly adore a site where practically every character (i think i saw like one straight character.) is like super gay.

I don't know, it's just seems like a weird thing to me. How strange.

Of course i'm the type of person who says that most (as defined by my girly teenager taste in books.) books with straight pairings in it, are shit. (i won't tell anyone this really except a few of my good friends, because it makes me sound pathetic but whatever.)

So yeah, eh.

Dear bitches,

Please shut the fuck up and get the fuck out.

Thank you.

So if you've ever rped with me. you most likely have noticed some strange things.

The first one her voice.
The voice inside of Evageline's head, is a classic sign of batshit insanity. but i didn't have this here for that reason.
It oringinated at Me and Katie's rp. Where they (as in Evageline and Adele) where sitting outside on the grass outside of the hospital. It started out as a 'well i need to make my posts longer.' It also started out as just a thing that kept reminding of how horrible a person evageline is cause she's 'cheating' on Nyota with Adele(and Mina, and many other characters.) But now it has evolved into a sometimes awfully rude voice, that doesn't leave any comment uncommented on. It's sometimes very mean and sometimes not so. When Evageline talks back to it (usually in a very snappy tone.) people around her look up and are like 'wtf lady?!' Cause unlike the voice her comments are audible. Wow that was long.

The next is her subtlety. This is a super awesome thing to explain cause it's just so awesome.
So in the very begining of me and Becca's rp. (maybe was about october/november 2008.)(yup we started in october 2008) (and we're still going bitches!) Evageline, Nyota, and Mina were sitting and eating lunch, and at this point Nyota was the main person cause the idea hadn't come to me to put her into a coma yet. So Evageline is being in bitch mode. (she's stays this way for awhile.) so she follows Nyota when she goes to throw out her trash, adn then Nyota is like 'What's up Evageline stop being such a loser'.) And then Evageline goes and kisses Nyota. Yeah it doesn't seem like much. but before that in the roleplay Evageline freaked out cause Everyone thinks that they're (as in Nyota and Evageline.) are dating but they aren't. (they are in the story but that's a different bit.) So Evageline was going on a rant about all kinds of things. So when she did this Mina was like 'Hoshit you lied.' So yeah. but i really like Nyota's reaction, 'Evageline what the fuck?' ^^ Lolzs.

Umm yeah that's pretty much it haha.

XP yup i thought she finally racked up enough relationships that i had to make a list. I can keep track of them pretty good but it's funny when i have them all listed out.

Original story line-up
Nyota and Evageline.

Me and becca's roleplay
Nyota-Evageline
Evageline-Mina
Nyota-Mina

Me and Katie's roleplay
Evageline-Adele

Me and Danielle's roleplay
Evageline-Zack

Me and Emily's roleplay
Evageline-Frankie

Me and Maggie's roleplay
Evageline-Elena

Also Nyota is in a coma. She's been in a coma for a long time now. So...yeah. Me and becca are trying to wake her up but it just comes with shit. (See post below this one.)

Also to be fair, all of these relationships are in different rps, so it isn't that bad.

So me and becca we're trying our brains out to try and find a happy ending for our characters.

It's impossible.
The only happy conclusion we can come upw ith (which was started as a joke that we keep reminding each other of.) was the polygamy option. That is illegal, so we can't go into that option.

So anyway we think of it as SOMEONE HAS TO BE UNHAPPY. That is the only solution we can think of for our lifes. Which is pretty sad i must admit.

I came up with some things that all end sadly for someone.

Nyota wakes up. (where we have the rp now is that Mina and Evageline are sorta becomming a couple.)(Because NO ONE saw that comming.)(See:Bitch mode part of rp.) Who knew such a simple three word sentence could cause soo many problems.

The next one i stated that i think that Mina should get something cause she went through all of this she should get something.

But then we have the other problem of when Nyota wakes up she is lost and confused (even more so then with the amnesia.) about what the fuck is going on.

So yeah.
Nobody gets a happy ending =easy way
Two people get a happy ending =somewhat easy
Everyone gets a happy ending =Impossible

So y'all see our problems haha. Yeah... we totally screwed ourselves sadly.

eh yeah.

Oh please don't get me started.